ITS NOT EVEN REAL .....

Life is plodding on work is fine sort of working with Alan which am glad about has been back a few weeks now
the baby is having a rough time not sleeping well at all also the baby has had a few health scares had to be put on a drip for a while that really upset him and Sam  its not a good situation for them to be in both are stressed out  think Alan is glad to be back working .


Ben is still loved up with Lisa its unbelievable started football training to and wants to join some teams  Lisa is the goal keeper for a girls under 14 team some of her team mates have had scout`s looking at them from football clubs
Stockport county , Bolton wanders, Rotherham lol     Marks been keeping busy over the summer staying over at his mate david`s house met him several times he`s 12 and nearly 6 ft tall  and is a bit of a looker  going to be popular in a few years  I can tell.

I know in the last post things Looked  not to good for me and scot  well am still in the spare room really that's how it should have been in the first place when we moved in together scot is keeping his head down at work
not that he`s been in trouble at work  just wants to do his hours. been helping him sort out his bills  Ive offered to pay some off but he`s still a bit to proud needs to sort it himself .also he`s been to his doctor About his self
harming I will admit that worried me a bit seeing someone you love to bits get in such a state . He is trying to get into my good books or pants lol but I've told him he`s trying to hard . Had a few good nights out on the town  also attended some gay pride events  even helping out fundraising at the Manchester pride selling raffle tickets  with  Tony an old friend  I will admit I  will be a bit nervous going to be thousands there and most screaming gay hate hate  kind   scot was like that when i first met him .want to enjoy the experience  have some fun . 

also Ive got hooked on some play station 3 games like WWE and fighting games  I even spent £35.00 on clothes and furniture for my aver tar  I know its not even real          

hardest post ever !!!!

I know am a bad bloger sorry about not posting anything really haven't had the time or even felt like anything .
so what's been going on in my life start with the easy bit
Mums been away with Ben & Mark in Scotland had a nice quiet holiday no stress or hassle Ben spent a fair amount of time on his mobile  if there's a signal to is girlfriend were all surprised its lasted over two months now
Lisa must have something  special .  mark well he`s never mentioned a girlfriend or anything like that dont think hes all that bothered really. My mum s fine made her cry a few weeks ago I know am a bad lad making their mum cry I found some old camera negatives at my aunties house from like over 20 years back and had them developed some were a bit damaged and had to be destroyed but allot were ok so I got a photo album  and stuck them in  mum thought it was wonderful so not such a bad lad after all in fact a grate son  am not sure about that ..

at work well its dragging on I will admit I have been looking at other jobs on various job websights  just lucking by the way does get boring someday s then again I guess all jobs have the boring bits dont they.

now for the bad bits

Scot well we had a bit of a fall out couple of weeks ago and it`s sort of changed things  think the word fall out  is putting it lightly wont tell you how i found out but since we have been together he`s had sex with  an ex Greg  5-6 times  we  did do something  months ago  the 3 of us but it was just  greg sucking me and scot off ..   I now know that was planed weeks before that just made me mad at Scot .I will admit I didnt have I high opinion of Greg before  he`s the kind who caries his brains in his bollocks  will try and fuck any guy who takes his fancy me included .anyway I just wanted to have it out with both of them .
Scot being Scot got all defensive blaming everything on Greg and am not that stupid to believe he`s totally blameless .
Greg on the other hand didnt care less thought it was all a big joke and am not proud of it but I just  dragged him into his garden and laid into Greg  like a cowed he just curled into a ball  broke his nose and chipped a few teeth again am not proud of that at all . it took scot and a neighbour to drag me away and I left them to it
I honestly didn't care less at the time.

I was then in stuck didn`t know where I was going to go didnt want to go to the flat didnt want to go running  back to mum and it was late so I just kipped in the car.next morning I had to get changed and freshen up  so i went back to the flat.

scot was there not been to bed  told me about Greg going to hospital also told him to forget pressing charges
as he wont back him up and the neighbour cant stand him   scot asked me is it over between us then  I didnt know I told him I needed some time and it would be better if I went to a mates for a bit  I think scot was dreading this happening he hates being alone  but I needed to be alone again I didnt want to go to mums shed just want to break Scots legs  so I went to tonys he`s some one I can tell anything been a good mate to me took me under his wing when I was at my lowest .

a few days past and scot had text a few times I was worried about him by then so I dropped in after about the 4th day the flat was in a right state  furniture was pulled down of the wall I was gutted it took me ages
to put all the furniture up in the first place then I herd scot in the bedroom he didnt look good also there was a few bottles on the floor I asked if he was ok   oh am fine he said trying to be funny  so sitting with him I told him what I wanted I wanted to move into the spare room for a while but I still loved him loads  he said he`d never hurt me again  as he got out of bed  I noticed the scot had been self harming thats one of his older issues
that scot has done since he was about 15 this  I have tried to understand  since scot told me months ago  I just huged him  he`s seeing someone about his self harming , his drinking thats got worse lately so he`s trying to sort that out also he`s fallen behind with bills that should have been paid months ago .

am sorry if this post has been a bit depressing  but its gradually improving  there is another post soon in the next day or so
                                                love to everyone
                                                                                   Lee      
       

         
          

helping hands.

hello
     been helping martin out today he does loft conversions and he`s several men down due to illness or holidays.
so Ive been helping with laying flooring down and fetching wood from builders yard .must admit its a hell of allot more physical than am used to even ended up with my shirt off I did have to explain bite marks on my shoulder
and chest to Craig the guy I was working with he`s 100% straight and no way was i telling him am gay the guys bloody huge so I just put up with his comments about being out on the shag with a lass if only he knew .

Met Sams baby he`s  lovely looks like Alan  and sam`s hair am sure I got a grin of him although it could be wind.

sam says he`s a noisy bleeder  gets that from Sam am sure .

mum is gob smacked that dad has come across he wedding photos not seen them in years mum did get a bit upset there were photos of her brother my uncle Kevin he died 17 yeas ago and mum only has a couple of photos of him  non with them together  but dad says his sister took loads and kept everyone  also ones with mum & dad together on there wedding day 21 years ago cant believe how young mum looks.

scot has been read the riot act by his boss for taking the holiday at such short notice 3 days notice he gave .
but he expected worse than a verbal & written warning but he says it was well worth it  told him about the bite marks on my chest and shoulder  he almost wet himself till I mentioned Craig thought it was a woman and I said nothing I did explain he was built like a brick shit house  and was most deficiently very homophobic.Think he understood .

Ben`s new girlfriend Lisa or Li as he calls her is not what I expected she`s like a tomboy into  football  supports man city cant have everything your way he supports united I think both teams are SHIT .Lisa is also a hard nut not a girl to mess with .
 

       

the wanderer returns sort of . ‬‏

been away on holiday we went to Rhodes  Lardos for a week late deal  just me and scot  had an amassing time.needed the rest to be honest just wanted to relax although the hotel we stooped at was horrible  but you cant have everything can you .
scot has to go and see his boss might get into trouble with work as he only gave like two days notice  my uncle told me I could go as Alan was on holiday so I would have been by myself all week.

At home Ben`s having a few problems at school with some people  but he`s doing well  with everything  and keeping his head down even managed to get himself a new girlfriend mark says its because she felt sorry for him.

dads been a bit down since he lost his big sister  but he`s keeping busy sorting all her things out like her money  and that .

finely Sam has had her baby  its a boy  David Alan  he was 6 weeks early .  
YouTube - ‪Summer Breeze - The Isley Brothers
thought it would be cool to post this  .‬‏

I am still hear

sorry I haven't posted anything  an Aunty has past away `dads sister ` he`s a bit cut up as she was the older sister  I hadn't seen her for a few years  but I  used to be terrified of her  she has always been big boned  weighed about  20 stone  and she used to chase me around  I was about 6 by the way and she was always giving me wet sloppy kisses I hated it . its sad that she`s gone she was only 60  dad says she`d not been that well
the past couple years . she lived in Scotland  moved up there in the 70s with her husband  my uncle  didn't see allot  of him  and dad didn't speak to highly of him .
but at least I able to support dad I will admit am not the most comforting person in he word  but I did my best .     

new rooms

Hey .
       Thanks for the comments from last post  they really do help .
Ben has to go see the school tomorrow with mum & martin and he`s looking positive  he has  done most of the hard work giving the money back in person some dint want it back and wanted nothing else to do with him .
others gladly took the money back but still want nothing to do with him  understandable I guess .
the I POD he took was given back last week..Ben has told mum that part of the reason was he`s not getting on with a few people at school Mark has said this also Ben also says he took the sweater from the market  for a bet
and that he wishes he`d not gone away in the first place  I know none of this is a good excuse for stealing  but  at least he`s owning up to it.   its been decided that Ben & mark should have their own bedroom as I've moved out now  it was going to happen anyway   just that its done now gives the boys some space  Mark has my old room  he`s more than happy  he needs the lock taken off the door mum wont have him locking it
it took me 18 months for mum to let me have the bedroom locked so mark would have no chance then again
he`s got nothing to hide .

Work has been ok Sam has now gone on maternity leave  she still has a few mounts before she`s due  but she
is going to take it easy and rest if she can .

Scot is doing allot off hours at work says he needs to put the hours in as his car insurance is up  also he wants
a week away abroad  cheap and cheerful  and hot  .
    

YouTube - The Cure - Catch
herd this song a couple of months back Alan lent me so of his cd`s

ONE YEAR ON .THANKS EVERYONE

So A year ago I began this thing didn't think it would last that long being honest didn't know what to expect  if anyone was interested  in the blog . don't think  iv`e done to bad
66 followers thank you for looking .
last month had the most page views  over 4,000
about 15 regular commenter's thank you all so much it means allot
the post about squeegy being ok had the most pages viewed I was a bit taken aback by that being honest nearly 23 thousand hits in the past 6 months .

my life a year ago I weren't up to much  life was a bit boring still is at times  I was a bit lost  still finding myself
was more or less excepting being gay last year it was i guess my little secrete only A handful of people knew outside family don't think I acted gay ever  the only person who`s guessed I was gay was Sam .

Dint have a bf  this time  last year  not even looking   didn't have allot of fun there was just the one guy
then Tim arrived officially had my cherry popped  then  wish i had waited a bit .

scot came along late September  didn't know what to make of him at first could tell he was gay a mile off.. today I love the guy to bits he`s my  first love my sole mate  sick bucket time I know .

family well  not much has changed I  did have issues with Lisa my step sister  but I found to heart to forgive .

Ben & Mark love them to bits although Mark is more mature  Ben's having a hard time at moment  he should be ok .


finally people who have commented hear .THANK YOU  to everyone who took the time out to comment  it
means allot


I would like to take this opportunity  to remember TIMMY  I admit I lost it when he left Its not something I deal with that well  hardly got to know him  that don't make it easer .

there are a couple off things that have happened in the year that I haven't even bothered to mention  things that
have left me feeling lost no knowing what to say or do but its best kept private         

    

WHAT YOU GONE AND DONE NOW ?. Take That concert .

Yesterday martin had to collect Ben from School  why ? because he`s been taking stuff that don't belong  to him
stealing Id call it. .He also took something from a market in Germany `SHOP LIFTING '  so he`s in trouble for that also from the school also.Ben`s been asked  to explain why  from the school  He says he didn't know why
but has more or less admitted it he`s stole
money
i pod
a sweater  from the market
he now has to wait and see what the school will do next . he could be asked to leave the school but its unlikely
that will happen  as long as the stuff he took is returned the ipod was a friends been returned .
money about £60.00 belonged to people he borrowed it off but he  had no intention of paying it back  .this has sort of backfired on him as it meant the 20.00 he borrowed off  Mark he had no intentions of paying it back .
Mum and martin say he need`s to take responsibly for his actions  and that he`s let everyone down  he`s going to loose friends over this   going to have to earn the trust in people . Ben does understand that he has let himself down ..

Take That well appart from the fact that there were thousand of girls screaming there heads of  scot also sometimes   it was not that bad the stadium was packed out and we were situated in good seats although I know scot wanted to be at the front with the die hard fans if they had them . but you could see OK from where we were  I will admit the best moment was when scot was hit by a water bottle :) it wasn't me BTW
seriously most of it was good had a huge robot that moved about and used as a platform for the boys  bound to be knocked out as a toy  by crimbo . I know scot loved it from start to finish even met some new friends
bunch of girls  no more than 14 years old  who sat near us with their mums  .

this post has taken longer than expected for various reasons but I think I got there in the end . the next post will be a look back at the year as its      one year old  today . will post it later today .    

        

just a short post .

Hi.
had a nice weekend  mum and martin were away for the weekend  so I was staying with Ben and Mark  Ben told me about Germany what he got up  to. sounds like fun . also chatted with Mark and got a different version of events
lol don`t ask .
its Sam `s last weeks at work before she goes on maternity leave going to miss her  a bit  not had a lot of female fiends  various reason including the obvious one. I  have grown on Sam god knows how .

on Wednesday Its Take That concert am not a big fan its just for Scot  am sure it will go ok.

as Ive mentioned mum & Martin have been away they went to see Neil Diamond yesterday in Manchester and staying at a hotel  just to give them peace and quirt .           

YouTube - Cherry Cherry- The Essential Neil Diamond
mums favourite song  

HAD A DREAM

I will admit am not one for having memorable dreams these days  but a few nights ago a had a dream that I had invented a new drink LENTIL JUICE  I remembered how i had made it crushing them through a sieve and juice would come out also lentil smooths drinks  so I goggled it  its already been done BASTARDS .  The first dream I remembered having was when I was about 4 years old  I had a dream  mum had hidden my favourite toy a Jeep so I woke my mum in the middle of the night demanding for it back it was of cores in the living room where I left lol  I just went up to bed taking it with me saying well don't do it again OK . I also had several in my teens 14-15 I was with some older boys from school I had realised I liked boys only by  that time  .

the boys are back home as I sed bag full of dirty washing no money left  in fact Ben had to borrow money of mark making him broke also  but I think mark is relived to be home  think Ben is too but not letting on .

we all had a discussion at work about  a tv program in the uk  it was about a care home in Bristol for people with learning  disabilities and the staff were more or less beating the crap out of some of them  I didn't watch it at the time but i caught it on-line I was shocked at the abuse  as everyone was  3 of the staff have been arrested
am not sure what I would have done to these scum bags.              

FOR ANYONE WHO IS INTERESTED.

I received a comment from G today he has had an email from Tristan @ RB if you are interested  go back to HOPE SQUEEGY AND THE BOYS RETURN SOON.  posted on Sunday. read the comments .
                                                                                                                                                LEE

notice anything different.

Can you tell I've been board today made a few changers  I did plan to make the changes I just did it today.

Scot was out visiting his mum did ask me but I couldn't be arsed today .So I  put the football on  he`s not a sports fan finds it all boring  just one of our few differences so well done Swansea hope you enjoy the premier

league get the feeling they wont be their for long . also hard luck man united  they get outplayed  in the champions league final  couldn't av happened to a better side .

mum says Marks homesick I knew he`d  be the first to crack..
comments from last post
@ jayman. I hope DJ gets it all sorted out .
@ Rowan .I did more or less work that out .
@ Andy.not sure if I can believe your RB story if only .thanks for the compliment anyhow .
@ Dave its like shock treatment  not my thing really .

   

hope squeegy and the boys return soon .

only me .
how are we all doing its another bank holiday weekend in the UK the last one for a bit  have always found them dead boring nothing to do nowhere to go most of the time .
at mums its all quirt Ben & Mark are away in Germany there first time away without mum and Martin  they went on Wednesday mum says they are loving it don't miss home at all    bet they are really .they come back Thursday. they will be broke , dirty washing, they will smell a bit lol,

mums going to see Neil Diamond next week she got tickets for her birthday she`s really excited  she last went to see him 5 years ago and couldn't see  much as some lard arse in-front of her kept blocking her view.  her words not mine .but this time she`s got a better view .

talking of going to see people Take That are a week or so away   and the reviews of the show sound good  Scot is sometimes bringing it up till I tell him to shut up going on about it lol people at his  work are beginning to avoid him  am just reading between the lines hear  were doing ok living together   the ice thing I mentioned a few post back it a sort of shock thing stopping you from cuming so next time round its even stronger it only happened once and I was knackered  and I was thinking why me  why not him .

the last post about rentboys story it looks like Tristan has taken it down am gutted that its gone this story is wonderful also Its where I found other blogs advertised  like Rowan`s blog  as well as other blogers  but I spent weeks reading rentboy and also fellow commenter's like G, sunny, southern , JJ-Richard, as well as others we all loved hearing about all the fantastic characters.    DJ his blog has been hacked so i`ve read

my blog is one year old on 8th june  been working on the post of all post for that but am not sure if it will get posted   

work my appraisal went well  it lasted about an hour but I found out where they think I could improve mainly  more training days also I am now taking on the role as resisted first aider as I have done the coarse last year .
so I just need to carry on what am doing .    LEE .        

this cant be happening

I CANT BE TRUE.

I dont know whats happening  my favorite story websight  a rent boy named  looks as if it`s been taken down I hope its not true  this is the best story ever .

shock treatment

hello all.
             this is getting  to be a regular thing post on Sunday`s .its  easier as I have more time to do it
at home peter has enjoyed his stop he even cooked a meal for everyone cant seen Ben or Mark doing this
there not that domesticated lol. peter is far to polite full of please and thank you`s he tends to get on with mark more  Ben's more like his dad .

believe it or not this time last year I was spending hours reading rent boys story I was hooked I didn't read it for smut or anything  its not that kind of story  I've read it several times now  soon after I started my blog will let you all know when its one year old .

my step sister has had a baby boy Elliot he`s so cute good pair of lungs on him and a good grip. hope he keeps his mum on her toes lol so am a uncle sort of ish. 

Scot has started his new job works at the help desk at a  hospital in manchester  says he loves it only started  last week still on the induction period  but its put more of a smile on his face .

we have tryed something to spice things up between us Scots  idea its like shock treatment  like with ice and will probablly involve freezing my bollocks of litrally .

YouTube - The Stone Roses - I Wanna Be Adored
this is a tune I love to bits  ledgend manchester band

SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF HIM .

past few days have been good work is a bit boring sorting various job applications found it difficult staying awake .Also my appraisal is looming  its like a yearly chat with bosses what I do good , where am fucking up am hoping am not at all but am not to worried about it.

at home peter the German exchange student is staying a few days hes nearly 13 and bloody huge like over 6 ft tall can still grow some more Ben thinks hes being fed on miracle grow plant food .peter is going to be popular when he gets older with the girls or boys  bit of a looker to

stooping over at Scots this weekend am slowly leaving stuff there so I might move in soon just for a few weeks see how it goes I was a little worried that we would get on one another nerves  but  it might torn out good  . his flat is on the top floor `forth ' you can see miles from the windows  the outskirts of Manchester ,  into derbyshire  can spend hours with the patio door open just staring into space . Scot is changing jobs soon he works in an call center for a finance firm  he says its sucking the life out of him    isn`t that my job.anyway he`s going to be working at a hospital at a help desk .also the Take That concert is in a few weeks time cant believe the date its on  don't worry I will explain soon

thinking of changing stuff around like a name change  have a few names in mind like GSTAR HAS GROWN . let us know if you have another name in mind  also am working on the mother of all posts.

few people have returned

just a quick post  a few people have returned to blog land
DJ is back been back few months apparently welcome back DJ.
Gabey has sort of posted in the past week hope you return soon mate .
also I think gay Andy has returned am saying this because hes on my followers photo thing  visited his blog page but cant find a comment box  then again I could be wrong .. post again after work

ROCK HARD !!

All been to my dads for lunch today I haven`t seen him for a bit he`s lost weight 2 and a half stone he was told he needed to loose 4 stone he was 16 stone then and 13 half  now he looks really well allot of the fat in his face has gone only has the one chin now lol also his waist  he`s dropped a size trousers  really chuffed with himself good on him .

my step sister was their fallen out with her boyfriend she asked him how many people he`d  had sex with he was honest told her more than 20  he is 19     she`s 17 and has had sex with 7 people she is also expecting a baby in September so her hormones are more than likely kicking in but she thinks he`s shagging other people  i don't think he would .

Ben told my dad a joke that made him nearly wet himself .

man buys a northern budgie  ``its a talking bird by the way''
budgie says  am a northern bird am ROCK HARD .       24 hours a day
so its owner says  I gonna teach that bird a lesson  he buys another budgie twice as big as him puts him in the cage goes to bed .
next morning he has a look in the cage  big budgie `s on the floor and little one sat on his swing  and says am a northern budgie I am ROCK HARD .

guy goes shopping again brings back two of the hardest birds he could find  puts them in the cage
next morning  he looks and they both dead  budgie sat on his swing am a northern budgie  me ROCK HARD .

the guy spends days trying to find a harder fighting bird 
he finds an American balled eagle on the Internet  greatest fighters ever so he orders one .

a week later it arrives had to feed it whole chickens a watched it rip it to shreds so he thinks yep he`s ready

he puts it in the cage with the budgie goes to bed during the night theirs a hell of a racket from the cage from both birds  he gets up next morning to find the cage smashed in pieces  the floor cover in budgie feathers as well as eagle feathers   the eagle is shaking in the corner covered in blood
the budgie is sat at the window shakes his head  and says well I had to take my coat of to that one  but I think we came to an understanding

was hot !!!

Hello.
         works been different to say the least am covering in our personal department were on a recruitment drive so I have been placing adds  with local press and various employment agency  .also I have had to look into staffs days off sick  one person I was checking up on has had 18 days off in the past year for various reasons of sickness like got the flu , pulled my back  , and they still get paid  av spoken to her on the phone this week  don't think their`s allot wrong with her to be honest she`s back after a few days away
defiantly pulling a fast one . a guy I work with Russ think I mentioned him before he`s really nice pity he`s straight as ad love to teach him something  lol.

At home the  Germans are coming like exchange students for Ben & Mark A boy named peter will be spending a weekend with us year older then Ben & Mark he`s 12 soon 13 but he gets my bedroom  am happy really   `need to make sure I hide a few things' .

last weekend was eventfully at Scots dads house he`s away by the way and Scots keeping an eye on it  the place is modern on the inside but it looks dead old   .  we went into Manchester on Saturday evening it`s about 20 min`s on train an I got well pissed went to town had  various shorts  and bottles of lager  by 10 pm I didn't have a care in the wold .we had bumped  into Greg an old mate of Scot`s met him once before and he was ok despite feeling me up a few times  lol. it was a good night out  Scot had invited Greg back for a few drinks as he didn't live that far away from his dad .we just chilled out at the house lounging around and I was still a bit merry I got chatting to Greg about various stuff like work  he works for the  council as a bin man  and also in a bar sometimes   I could tell Scot was horny as hell when Greg had nipped to the loo he was all over me and I responded as you do  `any gay man would '
Greg returned to the sight of Scot tugging at my cock and me with my tong half way down his throat
that looks nice scot mentioned it is  and he`s all mine I just sat there with a mother of all hardons
I needed the loo  and more lager so I excused myself .
 scot followed me into the kitchen and asked me if Greg could join us in a bit of fun I was still very horny and didn't care much so I said its cool and went back into Greg and sat next to him on the sofa

and things soon got a bit hot for a while  think its best to use your imagination hear .I will admit it was different  but nice
doubt it will happen again as I said I was a bit pissed .

am staying in this weekend cleaning the bedroom and spending time with everyone something I haven't done for a bit .
  

YOU SICK OF HEARING ABOUT THE WEDDING .

you may have herd that in the UK we have a Royal Wedding tomorrow and an extra bank holiday weekend .

cheers Will & Kate thanks for the extra day off .What I don't understand is how it can cost us tax payers

20 million pounds  towards the weeding  probably for policing the event  The security off the wedding I mean I hope nothing serious happens at the wedding but  its a sitting target for something to happen .

work been asked to cover somewhere else for a bit in the personal department as they are several staff down and my uncle has asked me to help with there recruitment drive  for a month or so it`d   be a change.

going to Scots dads over the weekend says he wants to get out into Manchester happy with that
washed my car for the first time yesterday went a bit over the top with shampoo and also the wax used far too much took me ages to rinse off the suds also I found out its better to use a leather cloth after or it leaves marks on he bodywork  worked out what am going to do next time?.   ask someone to do it for me .

So now if you would all care to be upstanding for our natnial anthem  GOD SAVE THE QUEEN.
YouTube - Sex Pistols - God Save The Queen (HD OFFICAL MUSIC VIDEO)

oh bugger !!!